Hello, I promise I'll be real strong

For starters, I was one of the least religious people to exist. I did believe in God, but mainly because it was something thrust upon me, like "here, this is your faith, this is not your decision. now smile and look happy, he's watching."

Today, August 12th, 2009; my life has taken a turn for the better.

What happened;

I was sitting with Team Victorious Secret(my water wars team, clever name copliments of Valerie) listening to Adam's message. Today he talked about no matter how dirty you've been in your life, there's always a second chance. Basically, you could be a homeless, heroin addicted hooker and God will welcome you back with open arms and tell you he loves you. That hit me harder than a brick wall. We were then asked to stand if we wanted to accept Jesus into our life, I of course stood. After the message, we were invited to pray with one of the group leaders. It really felt like I could not reach Val fast enough, and as soon as I did I sobbed. I cried my poor little heart out, not because I was sad; no. I was so moved standing there, I was in awe. I've never felt so pulled toward God ever. Even now I'm left speechless.

So here's how things are going to change;

I'm done making selfish decisions, and choices I'll regret later on in my life. If people are going to look at me as a Christian, how are they going to see God in me through my poor choices? They won't, that's my point. So if you're reading this, help me with this. It's going to take a lot for me to change for the better and I want you to support me.

All I'm asking for is some respect. Respect for myself, respect for my faith. If you can't offer that, no hard feelings. I just won't need you like I thought I did.